What is all this?
Interesting conclusion, thank you for letting me know
listen up
I can’t.. that feeling grabs me..
Please let me go.. sorry.
PLEASE.
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this is new home
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don’t be so mean..
this is not how I feel..
not the way that it really should be, this night
I’m not myself, I’m someone else
there’s nothing right, it’s beyond me
my flesh is gone somehow I’m
wait.. what?
That scent is remarkable and unforgettable..
The moon shines and guides me,
yes, very narrow path,
much ache, much toil, many beasts and dangers,
multiple things in your way, including sexy women,
smoke, ale, cold nights,
lights shining overhead and off the lake,
where the fuck am I?
Save my heart, please, because winter is not good for it
and forever and ever I wonder where the warmth is
from you, at least, that’s a wish or a hope or a dream I will never let collapse.
That feeling will never leave me, I’d rather die than let it go. It will never be the same,
because we are meant to be as we are, and this is something that I see.
But I can look down a dark hallway and see your ghost already, even if you are in Manila, or Sydney
while I’m freezing in Toronto, or I’m dead in Tehran.
Why won’t you come home?
koala for dinner
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The way your light reflects
the grace is like braille
the way a hand can feel your face
and it’s so dark, but I don’t know that
so it doesn’t really matter to me, anymore..
But I did feel it, that strange passing of what I could not grasp.
Fine.. so be it.
Blood can evoke so many images, I just imagine
a circle drawn on the floor, with a strange glow,
and people chanting, waiting for their god..
like I’m waiting for you.
And I can imagine things darker, far darker..
darker than you, or I, or anything we could be..
Darker than the moons heart on a night where I am invisible,
just like you,
and thinking about why the weather seems perfect if we’re not there;
figures.
Forget about it, I suppose,
because it’s sinew that binds
bone to bone
and blood that makes sanguine
ribbons flow from between
the crevice to one to another,
until one day it just can’t grow.
Now? Forever I will remember the way it really was, shrouded forever in amber some scientist will find someday. More and more now I feel like a bug — awake, asleep and dreaming — three totally different things. When did things become so automatic? When did they become out of control? Or is it really that? Perhaps now things are starting to find their orbit in life. Perhaps things are solidifying — gelling, so to speak — but why is it so disconcerting? I’ve always been a thinking, feeling person. I’ve never questioned my intuition for more than a few hours at most, and that’s just me being realistic. Should I feel like I’m on the moon? Every day I do. Please tell me why this is.
Do I yearn for something different? Obviously — that’s the eternal question answered, so don’t play dumb — and tell me exactly what is different? The Metro is metro. The Suburb is suburb. Only language, culture and perception stand between the watercolour of human existance, yet it’s more like finger painting. We do have refined culture, according to us, and have for thousands of years, but where do you draw the line between pain and pleasure? Between thought and feeling? However, what about those sculptures made thousands of years ago in some idea image? The ones that have been around, been weathered, seen revolution and transport and more eyes than you could ever? Suffice it to say that those busts of warlords and generals, presidents and kings will eventually crumble and turn to sand, they will fall with the museums that they reside in. They will be mud of the heels of our boots. Eventually they will. This is very sad.
I don’t know how to elaborate any further, I don’t think I did a very good job: But I want you to know a few things about my life and our lives, and if you are willing to listen then I am willing to listen to you. I listen to you every day, and that’s really the only way this whole thing is gonna work out, I guess.
Take it easy, as always,
-RM
the wood of man
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Hello again.. from far away
somewhere in the dark,
those lucid, lavish moments between sleep and dream,
between feeding and eating, between flesh and bone,
all those tiny moments, varicose like veins
running up a leg, or crumbling
a brick wall like ivy, over grown a thousand years.
White like ivory, or the whites of eyes
of soldiers, boys, men, felled
running towards a goal one hopes to never need,
but in order to survive
(and yes, there’s the rub)
they must.
Falling asleep in dreams is the worst thing that can happen,
for to awake two times, simply twice,
is disconcerting like a loved one slamming doors,
or cupboards slamming alone in the grip of night,
or wondering where you are on a long road,
or breathing your last breath, slipping under..
Do you dare, or do you dare?
To think that one day we shall be grand, if we survive,
and if the stars align — some intangible, superstitious force, a magnet? –
well, I won’t leave my fate up to something as stupid as that.
You’ll see, because I always bite off more than I can chew,
and sure, it seems gluttonous at first but then you realize,
the rhyme and reason for everything is there,
all you need to do is get through the bark, and with the flesh exposed –
feel free to feed on the forest for as long as you’re fit, god knows we won’t stop you..
Belch your smoke and cinders and smog and ash, feed my family to the fire alive or dead!
Those turgid fires inside the belly of the beast will eat forever, and they will eat you and me.
short update
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Well, I got a splash page up at least, thanks to my friend Jake. You can find his site at www.jakemakes.com
