Monthly Archives: July 2009

Distractions

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Besides my good looks and charm, my dependence upon worldly possessions, my desires of the flesh and the horror that one day I’ll die, lies a cranny carved in some ediface of rock, undisturbed for what seems like a blink in the eye of an otherwise indifferent universe. The nook is not particularly interesting, but it is what is seeping from this which draws my attention: I can see in my minds-eye that there is almost no light that far down, yet there is a glow pouring out of the distance.

Through the murk and the mire, you have been swimming for far too long now, and your lungs are aching for air the way all those miners felt. But now you’re there.

When you wake up on a beach, soaking wet, you wonder how you got there. You are completely naked, except for a long gold necklace around you neck; the necklace is roughly interwoven, thick strands of solid wire, reminiscient of your mother’s hair.

Smoke drifts off in the distance as you drift off to sleep, only to wake up to a blizzard outside of your window. A blizzard of water, not snow, pouring in your open window. All that water? From the sky, not the ocean. That gasping for breath? The realization that you’re not really where you thought you were. That dream that faded so quickly into reality? We see reality the way we see blood seep through a bandage, or the way we see a cloud drift across the sky. Forget what you think about me, and you, and our ancestors, we are the important ones, the world is subject to our whims, because we dream a god, god does not dream man.

“The old soul lives in the dark night”

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Hearts battered and hearts bend
and where’s my soul? Is it in my head?

That whole-life illusion, the sun
like so many chests, and deep breaths
observed by loved ones as you sleep
late at night –
raising and falling,
and that moon, and the stars,
nature, god, women and wine,
that illusion –
that dream precipitates,
forms a thick layer on your mind,
in your broken, battered heart.

Your soul never suffers! Never
is the question for suffering
in your soul to be brought up;
wrought up or dredged from some
black
miasmal
hole
you thought was long gone, long
covered up.

And you wake, with that flavour
in your mouth, that grit
in your teeth, the punch
of smoke, Cigarettes, countless Cigarettes,
flirting with you
and with Nausea, while
Desperation goes to the bar for a drink.

I failed already, and so did you,
I gave in; I didn’t go the whole way, I stepped back,
but you,
you stepped in.

Toes wet.

Wanna make a bet
that I am
the first person
to last for
ever?

My mind has as much to spin as my heart
has hot burning coals, smoking
and smoldering
and boiling everything
it sees. Why can’t I be
cool like all those gatos you see sleeping
in dark alleys? Drinking warm milk out of saucers,
stepping between the pillars of legs underneath
a glass ceiling, in a maw of shopping malls,
wrapped in highways and asphalt,
with a smog cough;
some grotesque Godmas present we are too scared to open.

Well, we sit and breathe smoke to the lake,
sing to the moon,
lift the bottle and try to sleep it away.

short update

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Well, I got a splash page up at least, thanks to my friend Jake. You can find his site at www.jakemakes.com

Hmm..

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Hopefully I’ll update this.